I See Myself Digging This Hole I’m Standing In
I know it seems like I have it all together.
I can’t even keep a straight face while I write that.
I know it seems like I have it all together.
I can’t even keep a straight face while I write that.
I’m just about done with 2022. I mean, technically, we are all just about done with it, but I’m dramatically and metaphorically done with it.
Maya was a very good dog. Even once she developed Cushing’s and had to pee all the time and didn’t always make it outside, she was still an excellent dog. One of the best.
After all of those conversations about my fear that she would leave and trying to believe she really wasn’t going anywhere — my therapist is leaving.When we had those conversations, she didn’t know she would be leaving anytime soon. Intellectually, I know that. Emotionally, it is a lot more complicated.
My boyfriend-turned-friend-turned-boyfriend-turned-friend-turned-pandemic-boyfriend-turned-friend who sometimes sees things I don’t see in myself – good and bad – points out the flaw in my drive to embrace vulnerability.
There are certain times in life that feel like dividing lines etched into a window to your psyche. Natural confluences of moments that come together to make you contemplate the “what next” of it all.